Remaking Me

Should I continue walking in the same directionless direction or should I re-evaluate my options?

For as long as I can remember I have been trying to do something of my own. But I haven't been able to achieve what I wanted to. Am I doing what I want to be doing? Is this the best version of me? Where am I supposed to go? What am I supposed to be? Can I be better? Can I do something of my own?

After many years of ignoring this, I still find myself attracted to the idea, but I find myself woefully under-skilled. So that I don’t forever live in guilt, here is my attempt at rebuilding myself. What do I mean by rebuilding myself? Making my own money, obviously. And maybe along the way finding myself.

I promised myself that I will post a podcast everyday from here on. So, here I am with my first podcast. My aim in these updates will be to

1.       Write down what I will be saying in the podcast. 

2.       Describe my day

3.       Describe what I have done so far to rebuild myself, how much and in what direction.

4.       Describe in detail what I have learnt today.

7.       Talk about what I want to do tomorrow.

8.       Do all of this without being negative.

8.       Keep updating this list

Please do follow along. I think traveling alone will not be as interesting as traveling with some good company. And I intend to monetize this by sharing helpful “tips” later on😊.  Honestly.

So, what have I done so far? Today, I bought a subscription to a stock video website and ended up making a very sleep-inducing video in Adobe Premiere Pro (another monthly subscription). I went ahead and posted this very dull video on my 10^th YouTube channel. I started on this YouTube channel fairly recently, 2017 to be precise. And, I have uploaded a total of 7 videos. One video (which I uploaded 2 years back) has around 8k views, the rest I uploaded over this weekend and they have no views other than my own. I am, however, going to stick to a schedule and upload at least twice a week and give you updates on my progress. If my experience with my other channels is anything to go by, the quality of content that I create generally gets a 100 views per year, which I am pretty sure are all bots.

I am going through the motions of creating videos and uploading them, but I feel no motivation. I think it’s because I can’t hear the cash registers ringing and that is going to be a problem for a long time. But I will have to persevere and hang on.

What did I learn today? Ripple Edit. I didn’t know it was a thing. But I think it can save me some time. I also learnt that Premiere Pro can crash on you and apparently there is no saving from that. 

What will I do tomorrow?

Churn out another video for my “new” channel and then do this podcast.

So, see you tomorrow.